This is the day! It’s the Saint Lucia day in Sweden, celebrating the “queen of lights.” That’s the day my “queen of light” went to the place where there is eternal light, no darkness! No pain! No suffering! No tears!
Here I am in my loneliness, letting the memories flow. It’s been 16 years since she moved to a better world. I have her little shoes that she took the first steps in. They were white, but I painted them green. It took time before she could hold her balance. Very much was different with her. Not until she was three years old were we told the reason for all her “problems.” Our princess had cystic fibrosis. When the time for her last journey came, her body had no energy to fight.
Fight? Why would she fight against moving home to God? I wish you could have been with us the moment when she let go. It was a sacred moment. “Evita –I said to her–, go home to God!” It would have been selfish to keep her. She had battled a long time, fought a good fight!
I read to her Paul’s words in 2 Timothy 4:7,8.
I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith. Henceforth there is laid up for me the crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous judge, will award to me on that day, and not only to me but also to all who have loved his appearing.
Then we shut down the devices that kept her alive. We did not want to do it, but we had to. And then there was only a flat line on the screen. I can picture her as the angels came to usher her the soul home to God, and Jesus giving her a welcome hug!
No more respiratory distress! No diabetes. End of the asthma! No more Meniere’s. I don’t remember the long list of ailments… Now she is healthy and whole! Lucky her, I want to say. But I have the same hope. Soon it will be my turn.
First Advent Eva-Marie was with us. I’m so glad we took this picture. Just a few days later came the pneumonia. Then the hospital stay in the intensive care. Her entire body was infected. My friend Karen told me that the doctors were just waiting for our decision to turn off the artificial aids.
It was hard. It wasn’t fun for Carina to lose her only sister. And Smulan, Eva-Marie’s poodle friend and companion, could not understand why she never came back from the hospital. They had more than ten years together! Smulan (little crumb) was Eva-Marie’s “salvation” against loneliness. It is very lonely to have a chronic illness.
This morning I watched NASCAR videos with the boy who filled the void after Eva-Marie. When David was born, 14 years ago, I literally felt the hole closing. Now that he is in High School, and comes every morning to wait here for the school bus, he brings me such joy! Today was the first time we watched NASCAR videos. It was fun! Usually we play Words with Friends on the phone. Can you believe that he is beating me in Spanish? His little fingers move like lightning over the keyboard and he tries different combinations until he gets a word. Who cares that he doesn’t understand it!
My friend Karen has also received a welcome hug in heaven. My Bengt has also been welcomed home. I still have work to do. The last Sunday this year I will celebrate 400 Perlitas, the stories I have published online for eight years, faithfully every week.
Eva-Marie loved the La Perlita paper that we printed and distributed when we were in Bolivia. Now we’re celebrating 400 online stories, and my Assistant Cristina will have a party in Lima, Peru. It will be for her niece Ale and her little friends.
Do you have the hope of heaven for the day it is your turn to leave this earth? Jesus is the way to God. I’ll be happy to help you find that hope. Send me a message.
See you soon!